How To Be Inconsiderate
I know there is a war going on, but I have a confession to make. I screwed up someone else's life. I did it to someone I don't know, and I did it for no reason at all. So random...
This is about 2 years go. I go into a net cafe in Cairo. It's a small and cheap place. I go on this computer and check my email and surf the net for a bit. I open up MSN looking for friendly chat. But someone has left their username and password in there!!!! It's not signed in but their account and password are there, I can simply sign in with their account... I had a moment of hesitation... ok a split second...
My mind was something like this:
"ok just go in see who this guy is and then get out."
"it's not yours so just leave it alone."
"just a quick peak, maybe there is something interesting"
"control yourself... you make me sick"
So I log in with his account (the username was a guy's name)... He's got some friends online, nothing special... So I go about doing my other stuff. Then this conversation window opens up... The display picture has a half-naked guy showing his abs... "hmm... intresting" I think to myself. Then 3 or 4 windows start popping up. The thing is they weren't just people. They were all guys. Guys with half-naked pics in their MSN display. And the messages I was getting were a little weird... "hey hottie", "missed you"...etc... I realized that the guy I'm logging in as is gay. I have nothing against gays, but naturally I was a little repulsed.
I should have done the right thing and logged off. But my mind was going into different directions. I am not gonna self-analyze my thoughts at the time, there is no excuse for what I did really. I'm just gonna tell you. I opened up his email and looked at the distrubtion lists. His lists were something like this:
"Guys from US"
"Guys from Egypt"
"Guys from Sweden"
etc... he had guys from many countries
So I created a new email to his "family" and "friends" distribution lists. In the message, I said something like this:
"I wanted to tell you all this for a long time. I am actually gay."
You know being openly gay in Egypt is probably not an easy thing. Do you think I ruined his life? Do you think it was fate? Was there a purpose to what I did?
Of course I have no excuse... it was an nothing but an evil act from my side and I don't know how long it will keep haunting me for. I'm sorry dude.